Happy Easter

So this was Reagan's first Easter! She was absolutely beautiful and Kaden was the most handsome boy! We celebrated Easter at Wade's parents yesterday. They had their egg hunt. Unfortunately, both of my kids were totally into doing something other than the hunting. Kaden got a few eggs and he was off running and playing. He had more important things to take care of. Reagan basically sucked on one for 15 minutes, which was totally fine and made for some adorable pictures! We went to both of my grandparents today and spent time with my family. It was a glorious day!

Wade's Dr. Appointment

Wade went to the doctor this morning and after doing all of his tests, two more spots were found. One looked as if it was already there and has just grown big enough to see. The other, which is close to his diaphragm, appears to be new. They were unable to see it if it was there before. So, now we will wait for another six weeks to see what happens with these new spots. At his next appointment, a decision will be made to decide when to start chemo. So, yes, chemo is no longer an option. More will be discussed at the next appointment in six weeks to decide how and when the chemo process will begin. By them waiting the six weeks, it gives them a better view on the next cat scan and will help to guide their decisions for the chemotherapy. They are very small spots - somewhere around 2 to 3 mm. Of course we can only pray that the spots would not grow and that no more would appear, but only time will see. Wade is doing okay. He of course is upset, but he's hanging in there. So, we will continue to keep you updated on future decisions. Please continue to pray for Wade's healing. And one more note, my aunt, Tina Cullum, has been battling breast cancer for a while now and is currently in the hospital with complications. Some spots in her lungs have grown and a new spot was found on her liver. Please pray for her and her family as well as she begins a new chemo drug and continues to fight so hard!

By the way...

Reagan is finally in her own room. I know, I know. Why hasn't she been in her own her room yet? Well, we just have so much stuff and our house is just a little small. I say, we, meaning Wade and his toys. Her room has the computer, Wade's guitar stuff and his video games, etc. So we finally got the baby bed from my parents this weekend and she is officially in her own room. Her bed set is adorable. You can see it here: http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2743521. Now, we just wait to decorate. I say wait, because we've been discussing buying a new house. It's just talk right now, but we're really anxious and excited about it. However, our house has so many great memories. I grew up here, met Wade and got married while in the house and had 2 beautiful babies while being here. It would be sooo hard to leave. But good new is, I'm hoping my parents will be able to get it back. That would make me feel so much better. But, only time will see.

So anyways, back to Reagan, she loves her new room and her new bed. When we got it assembled, we put her in it and she just bounced around like crazy and laughed her little laugh. She's been in a playpen in our room so it has to be so much more comfortable and roomier!!! However, it was a little hard for my little baby to be so far away from me. Sure it's nice not having to tiptoe to use the restroom or go take a shower so we wouldn't wake her up. But, just so strange not having her right next to me to check in and make sure all is okay. Our little girl is growing up way too fast!

Under the Weather

So it's been raining all day long. It's the type of weather where you want to stay in bed all day long. Well, I did it. I took off work and I've been in bed all day long. However, I'd like to know who says, "At least when you're sick you can stay in bed all day long." Normally, taking a nap is never taken for granted. I LOVE to take a nap and will never turn down the opportunity if it is given to me. But today, I have felt HORRIBLE! I took the kids to Sharon's today (babysitter) and I went to the doctor. Yes, I probably should have gone earlier since my symptoms began Thursday with my right eye nearly closed shut. I am one who a lot of times believes medicine is all in your head. If you think it's working then it's working. And the other way around too. So, I naturally think I'm going to ride this one out and it will eventually get better. I'm becoming a pro at getting pink eye so I think I can beat it like nothing. I was so wrong. It only got worse. It's horrible! It not only hurts in my eyes, but my entire head throbs. It hurts to lay down. Matter of fact, it makes it worse! The doctor gave me two eye drops...one is antibiotic. The other is an allergy drop. Then of course she prescribes an allergy pill. A grand total of $100 at the doctor today. Lovely. I knew there was a reason I usually try to wait it out. Do you know what $100 will buy? I can think of two important things off the top of my head...5 jumbo packs of Huggies or about 9 containers of formula. Oh to think of the possibilities!

So, though the weather outside is a good day for sleeping...it's definitely not a good day when you're feeling a little "under the weather".

Little Things

When you have little kids, it's almost like you're able to relive your childhood. I miss those days. The carefree, simple days of playing outside until you were covered in dirt and so tired that you fell asleep at the dinner table. But now, it's up to us to make sure our kids make some of their own memories. There are so many things that happen in a day that I catch myself saying, "Man, I wish I caught that on tape." Like...

-Kaden getting the hiccups and saying "cuse me" after every little hiccup.
-after Wade walks away and I tell Kaden, "That's my daddy", he innocently looks at me with his head slightly tilted, pats me on the back two times and says, "No momma, that's MY daddy".
-Did you know there were monkeys in the trees? Apparently Kaden sees things I don't!
-getting so excited to see a "choo choo quain", "airquane" , and "cool bus"
-running to give me one more kiss 20 times before I am able to leave. "One more kiss momma. Wait! Big kiss momma!" This goes on and on.
-It carries on into the night time routine. Not only is it just him we have to kiss, but it's Woody and Buzz too.
-eating the most sour pickles and lemons and NEVER making a face.
-thinking it's his birthday everytime somebody sings happy birthday.
- playing with cars for hours.
- loving his sister, hugging and kissing her and making her laugh.

- Reagan's most beautiful smile and to die for eyes.
- the way she laughs at her big brother like nobody else.
- the special connection she has with her daddy (not to mention how much she looks like him).
- her stubborness is a little too much like her mommy.
- her little dimple that gets so deep when she smiles.
- playing pat a cake and actually rolling it up! She's such a big girl.
- getting those adorable teeth.
- crawling EVERYWHERE and trying so hard to pull up on anything she can.
- thinking she's just as big as her brother.
-smiling so big and crawling as fast as she can to get to us when we pick her up from Ms. Sharon's.
-crawling super fast when she thinks somebody's after her and then falling back and laughing so hard.
- daddy wrapping her up in a blanket and her falling back and laughing hysterically!

Man, I can only wish that one day my kids will truly understand how much love they have brought into our lives. How everyday is a new and exciting day and how everyday is full of so many new memories. I hope I can sit with them when I get older and remind them of all the little things that make me smile more and more everyday!

On the Move

Our little baby girl has finally decided to start the crawling process. She has gotten up on all fours and is scooting to get to things. She's so darn cute! When she sits up on her own, she throws her little hands in the air and then claps as if she wants to the whole world to be so proud of her. She tries to reach for things above her so I just know she will soon be pulling up. She has also gotten 2 new teeth within 2 weeks. Man, everything happens so fast. Before long she'll be chasing Kaden all over the place driving mommy crazy!

Wade got home from the hospital today and the kids were so happy to see him. Kaden ran through the door screaming, "Daddy!" Unfortunately Wade can't pick him up, but we modified enough to make it special for the both of them. Reagan just smiled ear to ear. She loves her daddy. She is definitely a daddy's girl.

Tomorrow I go back to work...at least for a day to get things ready for the coming days. I dread going back. If I could stay home I would. But, that's okay...we're moving right along!

Let the Rain Pour

So everyday is a new day for us. We sometimes find ourselves in a little routine doing the same thing day after day. It works for us. Our little family is complete and we have made the most beautiful babies in the world. Two babies and our biggest accomplishment in life. Wade is a gift from God. I often wonder if it is possible for anybody to really feel the way we do. If so, knowing how they feel, they are truly blessed. So day after day goes by and the kids grow what seems to be inches in a blink of an eye. Could life be any sweeter? But then life throws a little curve our way. Nearly 5 years ago Wade was was diagnosed with Synovial Sarcoma. He had a football sized tumor in his back. He had chemotherapy, radiation and then surgery to remove the tumor. All was wonderful for several years. Then January of last year, the bad news returned. They found several spots in his lungs. The year started off horribly wrong for us. I was 6 months pregnant and Kaden was 14 months at the time. Wade had surgery to remove the spots. Unfortunately, more returned and Wade had to have surgery again in October with another expected surgery a few months later. So, as of today, in one short year, Wade had 3 surgeries. And as I type now, Wade is in the hospital with what we hope and pray is his last surgery.So through it all, people have been amazingly supportive of us. We had a benefit to cover many of our hospital bills and the turnout was better than we ever even imagined! Everyday we smile, we stay strong for our kiddos, family and friends. But sometimes, somedays it is just so darn hard to put a smile on my face. I want more than anything to be strong for Wade. He is a fighter. He is the strongest person I know and I adore him for his strength and courage. So, when the rain pours down on us, I know an umbrella is just a few inches away. I take a deep breath, say a little prayer and move right along...through puddles and all.