Where's Weagan?

So last week I went to work several days. I was kind of back in the morning routine. I usually get ready first and then I get the kids ready. When I came into the living room, I turned on the big light, and then went to the laundry room (which is on the opposite side of the hallway from Kaden's room). I turned the hall light on. I suppose this woke Kaden up. It was still a little dark outside. Anyway, when I came back into the living room, Kaden comes out of his room. He has the most adorable sleepy face. He asks me, "Where's Weagan?" I tell him, "Well baby, she's still sleeping." Thinking he was going to stay awake, I was getting ready to put on The Backyardigans and when I turned around I see his door shut. So I assume he went to his room to play with his toys. Oh no...he went right back to bed and covered up. After I got ready, I went in to get him up and asked him, "Where did you go? I thought you were getting up." He just started laughing. It was so cute! I guess since he didn't have Reagan to play with, he decided he should just go back to sleep. He loves that little girl!

Speaking of Reagan, here are a few funny things she did this week...

-the first thing she says in the morning is, "Hello". I wish you could hear it. It is so funny!

- She is extremely fascinated with shoes. She finds them in places I didn't know we had shoes. She found one of Kaden's crocs and literally walked around with it all night. It didn't bother her at all that she didn't have the other one.

- She loves when you tell her she's so pretty. She lifts her dresses up a bit and twirls them. Give her a purse or a headband and she's even more beautiful!

- She's learned to take her diaper off. The other night, we went through 3 diapers in like 5 minutes. I'd look up and see her playing with her shirt on and nothing else. It's like she would rather prefer it this way!

- Apparently my daughter does things the opposite way. Who says you have to eat an ice cream cone from top to bottom? Nah! Reagan eats the cone first. Oh yes, imagine the mess.

- She started singing Old MacDonald Had a Farm. If you sing the first part, she says, "E I E I O". She then tries to make a pig noise by growling! Oh and she now says Q, R, S in the alphabet song.

- She loves puppies! She is always walking around with a puppy book saying "Puppy" over and over. She then barks.

- She has such good manners...saying thank you after her big brother gives her something. She even says sorry if she does something to hurt him or his feelings.

- She is a little bossy. If we're telling Kaden to do something, she gives her opinion and lets him have it. But she loves him dearly! She's just looking out for him.

New House

Mom and Dad are moving into their new house and we went to check it out today. The kids were CRAZY! They still had not brought the toys so they were toyless. It didn't stop them from finding things to do...like playing in a pile of newspapers (that the glasses were wrapped in). The funniest was watching them run from my dad. They would take off running from my dad and he would hide. When they came out to find him, he would scare them. Of course they would take off running the other way. But little Reagan...she just screamed as loud and high as she could. Her little feet were practically off of the floor she was running so fast. She followed Kaden everywhere. They were adorable! Reagan finally got to the point to where she would put her hands over her eyes. She really thought it made her invisible.

The new house is nice. The best part is they are so much closer. It only takes about 10 minutes to get there. And the good thing is the kids like it as much as us!

You're a Pwincess

Kaden: (puts toy on my head) Mommy you're a pwincess!
Mommy: Awe, I'm a princess?
Kaden: Yeah, and Weagan's (Reagan) a pwincess too!

Oh so sweet he is!

Wade came home today! Yay! He seems to be doing good right now. He didn't come home yesterday because they were trying to get his blood sugar under control. They sent him home with insulin that he has to take 5 times a day. More updates later.

Rain, Rain, Don't Go Away

Oh how I love the rain. I just wish Wade was here with me to enjoy it too. We really needed the rain. It has been so incredibly hot! Not only do I love the rain, but I was supposed to have a workshop today and it was canceled! Yay!!! It's was a 3 day workshop and now it's only 2!!! It feels like I'm back in school and I just got a "rain day". That's how excited I was. I love how the news channels are dying for it to be so bad and then they get so let down. So funny. So, soon the kiddos will be down for a nap and I'm hoping to be down too! I love rainy day naps!!!!!

Here are some pictures from the Wiggles. Kaden LOVED it...at least the first 40 minutes. After that, he was tired and ready to go. No attention span at all! But we still had a great time. Note in one picture, Lightening McQueen was way more interesting at the time.

The Wiggles

My friend's husband won tickets to see The Wiggles yesterday on 97.1. I was so excited for them! They have a 3 year old son, Carter. Well, she called me this evening and said her husband didn't want to go and wanted to know if Kaden and I wanted to go with her. Of course there was no hesitation...ABSOLUTELY!!! So, we are going to see The Wiggles tomorrow at 5:00. I wish so badly that Wade was able to go, but I know he would never want Kaden to miss out! Pictures to follow!!!! :)

Super Kid

When I got to the sitter's yesterday, Kaden's name was on the wall. This wall usually displays who has used the potty and how many times. It also says if somebody has a diaper rash, fever, or seemed upset for some reason. Then of course, it lists kids who have hit, pushed, and bit. Kaden is never on there for those reasons unless somebody hit, pushed or bit him. He is, however on there for climbing onto furniture and jumping. That's my kid. Then finally there's the names of kids who do nice things like help clean up, share, and be nice to others.

But when I got there I noticed some words in big letters that were outlined in a big circle and lots of exclamation marks. Inside it said, "Super kid of the day...KADEN!!!!" I know it sounds silly to be excited about this, but over the summer Kaden has experienced his terrible 2's. Kaden never hits or gets violent at all, but he does do a good temper tantrum. One where he yells no, stomps his feet and sometimes falls on the floor. Alot of times this happens when he is not feeling well or is extremely tired. It just so happens that during the summer he may not take a nap everyday. This is because we're either not at home or he has slept too late. So, for last 2 weeks, the tantrums have become minimal and controllable. And the times that I have taken him to Ms. Sharon's, he has been awesome. He is so sweet. She said yesterday he was sharing, being very polite, cleaning up, and helping others. She said he has been just awesome lately. I was so proud of him. Oh and by the way, there has never been a super kid of the day. This was a first!!!!

So I thought he was having such an awesome day and I had to go to Wal-Mart so I decided to take the kiddos with me on the way home. This is usually the worst time of the day and the lines are super long causing the kids to get a little impatient. So lately, either me or Wade goes to the store without the kids. It just becomes such a hassle with both of them...and so hot getting them in and out of the car. But yesterday the kids were great. Kaden listened to me and did everything I asked of him. The best is when I tell him thank you for something and in a high pitched voice he replies, "You welcome". You'd have to hear it to understand. So adorable. So yesterday was a wonderful day.

Unfortunately when we got home, Kaden got a little dose of diarrhea. (I know, I know, TMI). Reagan's had it since Saturday. I feel like all I do is change sheets. The good news is it doesn't seem to bother them at all (no throwing up, fever, etc.). I just hope it's not something Wade catches since he starts his next treatment Friday. We'll keep our fingers crossed!

Ahhhh...So Quiet

It's so quiet here I'm not sure what to make of it. The kiddos were in bed by 8:00. Poor Kaden feel asleep in his little recliner. It was too cute. He was exhausted! At this time, the kitchen had been cleaned and the living room picked up. So refreshing! I had a margarita and then a long hot shower. At 10:00, I thought to myself, "Wow, it still seems so early!" I've decided to take the kids to the babysitter tomorrow and Wade volunteered to take them (it's close to an hour round trip). He just came out and said he'd take them.

I don't dare do the "my kids are in bed early tonight dance". Last time I did that Kaden was at our door at midnight saying, "Hello" in a very British accent (I know weird, but sometimes he does this!). I do look forward to my beautiful babies waking up in the morning and greeting me with their beautiful smiles and sweet voices that just completely melt me! But for now, I'll just sit here and enjoy the peace and quiet!

Too Close? Not Possible!

As I sit here and watch my two beautiful babies play together, I can't help but think back. When we found out we were pregnant with Reagan, we were more than thrilled. We weren't really trying to have another baby, but we also weren't really preventing it from happening. Fortunately for us, the first time seems to be a charm. Kaden was 10 months old when we got pregnant. I never once thought, "What in the world are we going to do? He's still a baby and now we have another baby on the way." But we always had people saying, "Oh my gosh. That's going to be tough. Two babies in diapers". The list goes on. I have always wanted to have my kids close together and we were extremely blessed for it to have happened that way.

Kaden was great with Reagan from day one. They are incredibly close and really and truly love one another. Reagan is finally at the age where she can run and play with her big brother. I love watching them chase after one another, but the best is watching them love one another. It's usually Reagan who tries to kiss Kaden and half of the time Kaden either ignores her or tells her to stop. But she just ignores. And the other half of the time Kaden either kisses back or smiles. Kaden is always making sure she's okay, especially if she hurts herself. It's priceless. I hope and pray that they remain close and they always take care of one another. God has blessed us with two beautiful, close, special babies.

Kaden Matthew

I have to say...Kaden is an extremely unique kid. He amazes me more and more everyday with the things he says and does. He is such a brave boy. I know they say boys will be boys and that I am a little partial to him, but he is truly a boy. A boy that is amazingly athletic and observant. It only takes him watching somebody one time to do just what they do. He does flips without thinking twice. People are always laughing at him and all of his energy. He exhausts me! I am dying to get him in gymnastics to show off all of his skills. I am just waiting for things to get back to normal around here.

He loves to swim. He is always jumping in. Makes me a little nervous, but he does good. He loves water period. It doesn't matter if it's a swimming pool, sprinkler, or a puddle...he's so there!

He just started sleeping in a full sized bed in his room and he does wonderful. However, at 5:00 this morning he's screaming "mama" and is walking to our room. He fell out of the bed which is totally our fault. We need to get a bed rail. He's done good for a couple of weeks but I guess it was time. So I gladly picked him up and put him into bed with us. He's so darn cute. When he woke up, he smiled big at me and said, "I wanna play with my toys" and off he went.

Yesterday was the first day that he used the restroom (pee!). We were so excited. He's really been in no hurry and shows no interest, so we haven't really pushed it. It's about that time though. We made a big deal and got him some cupcakes and sang "Happy Potty Day To You". He was so proud.

Now, we have no doubt hit the terrible twos and some days I wonder what happened to my sweet boy. But then it passes and he's back to his adorable self.

He loves cars...more than any child I've ever seen. He's very particular about having certain cars with him. He has at least 30 of the cars from the movie, "Cars". He is constantly playing with them. Believe me, they are EVERYWHERE.

We finally got him a swing set today and as I type Wade is putting it together. The kids don't even know he's back there. I figured he probably needed peace and quiet to put it together. So I am anxious to see their reaction. I'll post pictures as soon as I get the chance.

I wish I could put into words the way Kaden makes me feel. He makes me so proud and I can't wait to see how he grows. He's already changed so much. It's so hard to believe.

Home

Please forgive me for a late update. I actually typed everything in an email the day he came home and went to spell check it. When I did, it froze and all that I wrote was completely gone. It took a long time to write it and the thought of having to do it all over again was killing me. So, I'm going to give it another go...

Wade came home from the hospital Thursday afternoon. He was ready to get home and the kids were even happier to see their daddy. Kaden ran to him and Wade picked him up. Kaden kept saying, "Daddy" over and over and then said, "You went to the doctor? You got better?" So cute. Reagan of course gave her daddy a huge "Reagan smile".

This round of chemo seemed to be much easier on Wade. They were constantly there to make sure he was okay. The only big problem was that starting the 3rd day of him doing his chemo drugs, his blood sugar became "critically high" which means it was above 500. Because of this they were constantly giving him insulin to bring it back down. They said the cause was probably from one of the steroid drugs they give him. It is the best drug to keep him from getting nauseous. It apparently does this to a lot of people. It was a struggle to get this under control. Now in the past, on the last day, Wade's heart rate would beat close to 125 and he felt this caused him to be extremely uncomfortable and exhausted. He said he thought he felt better this time and maybe it was because they were able to get it under control.

They sent him home with a glucose monitor and he is having to keep a close eye on his sugar. He has seen a endocrinologist once and will go back Wednesday to see her again. She said a lot of times taking these drugs can push you over the edge and you could become Diabetic. I'm sure Wade is borderline with it running in his family, but this does not help. The doctor said we had to wait several days for the steroid to get completely out of his system in order for his sugar to get regulated. So, we will see. Because of his sugar being out of control this time, they will probably admit him the next two times. Of course I hate him being away and he misses the kids tremendously, but if it means he will feel better, then it is all worth it.

And strangely, this time he did not get bone pain. He usually gets this on Sunday. It is from the neulasta shot. He said he felt weird not having it, but I reassured him that it is a good thing, not to doubt it, and that his prayers are being answered. More to come in the next few weeks!

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You know, there is nothing that hurts me more than sitting in the hospital room with Wade and watching him have to struggle to overcome all the pain that comes with chemo. But then as I am walking to the parking garage across the street from MDA, I see a man in a wheelchair hooked up to the machines with many chemo bags. Then, he coughs as he blows out the smoke from the cigarette he's smoking. Ugh...it was like a slap in the face. Here Wade is upstairs exhausted with cancer in his lungs and has NEVER smoked a cigarette a day of his life and this man is smoking his cigarettes. My first question is why even do chemo? Why try to fix one thing when it could cause more damage in the long run? As I tell this to Wade, he tells me I don't know his story. Maybe he has no chance of surviving and why not have one last smoke? I don't really know. But I do know that it is not my place to judge. Though I cringe when I see people smoking and many times get very angry, it still not place to judge and I have to realize that. I'm working on it.

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One day Wade and I walked out of the room to go for a walk and this man in his room down the hall yells to Wade, "Hey, what happened to all of your hair?" Of course Wade laughs knowing the same has happened to this man and walks closer to his room. He's sitting on his bed and his wife is standing next to him. It looked as if maybe he was about to be discharged. The question you may hear around MDA is, "So, what are you in for?" It sounds like something you'd say in prison I know. So his story is he has bone cancer and has been fighting it for 30 years. It has come back 8 times. He was telling Wade MDA is the best place to be and it is where he has been from the start. He said his cancer has come back 8 times now. His wife tells us that every time the time in between gets shorter. This last time he was cancer free for 18 months. But they were both so optimistic and full of faith. She said, "You know, I tell him, you must be needed here on earth to do great things and when the time comes, He just needs you more than we do down here." Sad I know, but they both were smiling ear to ear. You can't help but feel relief when you hear stories like theirs. I mean 30 years. That's amazing! That's one thing you will find there...people there to lift you up. And the most amazing part, it seems as though every person we have talked to has had an incredible amount of faith.

Get in Bed!

So it starts again. We're trying to break Kaden of yet another bad habit. Remember when I said Kaden asked me to lay down with him and I did...several times? Well for the past 2 nights I've been trying to break this habit. The first night was okay. Last night...ahhhh!!! I think he was up 30 times. So, here we go again.

Oh yeah and Reagan went to the doctor yesterday morning. I drove from Spring to Kingwood and was there when they opened so I could beg for them to see us. I had to be back in time to take Wade to MDA. Luckily they made some calls and took us right back! She has pink eye and a sinus infection. Lovely! Her eyes are so yucky. Although, this morning when she woke up, they were much better. I could get very descriptive but I won't gross you out. She's ran a fever off and on for the last 2 days. Hopefully it won't come back today! Yesterday it got up to 102.5. I dropped her off at Sharon's house when we were done at the doctor and then picked up Wade to go the hospital. I wasn't able to get to her until around 5:00. It was killing me! But, she's doing much better.

Hopefully tonight will go smoothly for both! Well all of us if you include me and Wade too!

Take Advantage of the Highs...Roll with the Lows

First thing's first...Wade went to the doctor yesterday after doing all of his tests. Good news came back. The two tumors in his lungs have stopped growing. Of course we can only hope that these spots will die off. There are no new spots which is even better news. We pray the chemo is killing the tumors as well as anything new that could possibly come up. Today Wade starts round 3. We are at the hopspital now as I type. I know he dreads starting over, but I keep reminding him this is all worth it.

Starting over is hard for us all. It feels like we're on this rollercoaster of life. The Friday Wade begins chemo, he is pretty much out of it for exactly one week and two days. The Sunday after next is typically the day he becomes more like himself. It is a day I love because I know in the next 2 weeks, he will start feeling better with every passing day. I love these days because this is the time we take full advantage of him feeling good. It's like a strange magical feeling to me and this is so hard to explain. I feel so close to him and I just LOVE watching him with the kids. By the way, Kaden started calling Wade, "Dad". It's so funny but I know so sad too. It makes us think he's growing up. I'm not really sure where he picked it up, but listening to him say it is halarious. You'd have to actually hear it to understand the halarity.

Last night Wade and I went to the movies together to see What Happens in Vegas, which by the way we LOVED! We ended up getting some PF Changs to go and walked to the book store across the road. It was just so nice and relaxing. Of course we missed the kiddos. It feels like forever since we've done something like that. I guess with the known fact of him starting the next day in the back of our minds, it made it just that much better. We just enjoyed each other.

Coming home to Kaden (who was still awake) made it all complete. Well and Reagan too. She was just sound asleep with that little thumb in her mouth. We bought Kaden a couple of books that he really enjoyed. So it was great to sit down and read with him. Wade and I then laid down with Kaden (I know...still a bad habit!). I love this time because we talk a lot about the day and just about silly things. Then he falls asleep and I do too (even as Wade is kicking my feet to let me know I'm snoring).

It's just the little things that make eveything so big and wonderful. I think people truly should take more time to enjoy the little things in life.

One last thing...I don't recall if I said Reagan is walking. She is REALLY walking. No up and down (well, sometimes when she falls). She mostly walks everywhere she goes. She looks like she's been doing it for months. It's amazing to me how fast they learn to do things like that and why they ever decide in the first place that it is the right time. Crazy little things.

Over the next few days I will continue to provide updates on Wade. Thanks again and again for all of the thoughts and prayers.